As of now I am officially 22. At first I thought to myself, “what the fuck have you done with your life these past few years? What have you accomplished? Nothing.”
But that’s not true: I broke away from a controlling religion and found my own belief system, I discovered I’m a feminist, I’m a certified rape crisis volunteer and I just became a domestic violence prevention volunteer, I moved out, I have my associates, I’ve fallen in love with nature with my favorite people and on my own, I’m falling back in love with myself, I’m becoming emotionally stable and working on a healthy relationship with Daniel, I got through the worst summer of my life without serious self harm even though that’s all I thought about, I’m going to counseling, I started eating again, I have the best friends in the world, I became best friends with a puppy who now owns my heart, I’m enjoying exercise, I just became a trainer at my new job, and most important- I am beating my depression and suicidal thoughts everyday, I am believing that even on the worst days, I am enough, and I deserve to take up space on this beautiful planet.
This is all very self centered I know but I’m just realizing now that I deserve to be proud of myself and I’m really happy about that.